Tonight has been a really rough.. I was laying down getting ready to go to sleep when my so called boyfriend started talking about a bunch of nonsense. He got mad because I told him that he always says the wrong things at the wrong time. And I told him I know you don’t care about my feelings and don’t care much about what’s going on with me and this pregnancy but it does affect me. He got up and started throwing shit around before he finally laid down... around like 11:30ish he decided he was going to lay horizontally on the bed to the point where I couldn’t move. He had already had me in this little space which I was able to get comfortable in at some point . I asked him politely to lay correctly and him knowing that if I can’t stretch my legs I get really bad leg cramps he told me it was my problem and to figure it out. I finally got tired and grabbed a pillow and blanket and came and laid on the floor.. he’s sound asleep on the bed comfortably and I’m laying here trying to figure out how to lay so I can try to get some rest...

**UPDATE**

Yesterday he apologized to me for what happened the night before. But it just doesn’t cut it. I don’t want to keep hearing I’m sorry, I don’t want to just feel loved when he’s touching me or we are intimate. Usually when he goes to work I get kind of sad but today when he left I felt so happy. All I want to do is cry I got no sleep last night. I told him how I was feeling and what was going on and all he would do was hug me and tell me he loves me and that he does appreciate me and everything I do. But it just went through one ear and came out the other. I just don’t know what to do.. Do I try to fix this, do I leave please help because I feel like I’m loosing my mind in my own thoughts 😔...