First time having sex advice

Kaitlyn

So I’m 19 and I’ve been seeing this guy. I’m still a Virgin and I’m pretty sure sex is coming in the near future. I’m terrified to be honest. I’ve done other things with men but have never gone that far. Sex is the only thing I haven’t done. I really want to do it, like a lot but I have bad anxiety problems. I can’t help but overthink and make up scenarios in my head. What if he thinks I stink? What if he thinks my vagina is weird? Should I shave my down stairs area? (He manscapes but doesn’t shave so idk what to do). I’m scared I might have a panic attack before, during or after. Any body have advice? I’ll take anything.

EDIT:

I know it seems like I’m forcing myself to have sex I’m not at all doing that. I was the one who brought it up. He wasn’t. I am 100% ready and it’s so hard being around him because I’m so ready. But my anxiety is causing me to be scared. And that’s never going to change. If I let my anxiety decide everything for me I’d never leave my house. 😂😂 he also knows of my anxiety disorder and he knows that I am nervous so im not hiding that from him.