blushing

I know nobody is going to read this but I just wanted to share what I’ve been feeling lately. I blush like everyone else but 10x worse my face turns into a tomato and everyone at school calls me that. I hate leaving my house because I hate how everyone looks at me when I blush badly. Even my crush told me to try to control it. He’s darker than me so he doesn’t understand how I feel and how if I could control I would. And if someone reads this please don’t tell me “I’m beautiful the way I am” because I know I’m not