Not sure how to break the news, but the anxiety is getting to me.

Kat 😽

I found out about a week ago that I’m expecting, which would put me at nearly six weeks, due date approx July 16. I had a hard time at the beginning of this year because I split with my ex, it was a long term relationship and I was sure he was it. It’s taken me almost the entirety of the year to find myself again, and I’ve gone from not only one better job/pay raises but to two, and I recently started seeing someone. The feelings are there, the relationship is so much better and healthier, but we haven’t been together long, September at most. I’ve always been very safe when it comes to sex to try to avoid exactly this. I’m on pins and needles because I don’t know how to tell him. We’ve talked about long term things and I do think we could make it. He has done nothing but have my best interest at heart, has been super supportive, and he adores his niece from what I can tell. (this week he was telling me how his family thinks I should just find a job closer to all of them already and how his mom hopes I stick around- he lives an hour and a half away) but I feel like this might be too much. We’re both 23 and still living at home, struggling financially. I do not have a good relationship with my parents at all, it’s extremely toxic and my next step was going to be moving out on my own. Thought I was covered with birth control, but wasn’t, nothing is 100%. I did disclose that I wanted us to use condoms as backup since I’ve been off and on BC this year and it’s messed with my body, so I shouldn’t fully place the guilt on myself. I just can’t help it because I know he is just as unprepared as I am, and because he’s been good to me where my ex wasn’t. I have a OBGYN appointment this week (I’m not comfortable having him go with yet or I would- I wanna be able to have an open conversation with my doctor and whatnot) and I know I have to tell him after, that’s my plan, and I know he will most likely need time to process it like I have. I also feel better about telling him in person and it’s gonna be the next opportunity. I know that me and baby come first and the most important thing is stability, finances, etc. I guess any advice or support would be much appreciated because I’m anxious as it is about being pregnant for the first time but breaking the news is adding more and more to my plate. My best friend knows but I honestly don’t feel like I can talk to her without judgment and she just gives me one worded replies. 😕