Currently 20 weeks pregnant and living together with our children from previous marriages. I awoke to my fiance not in bed, about 3 am. I figured he went to the bathroom and fell back to sleep. The next morning I awoke to him in bed but he had changed and his boxers were in the washer (washed).

I asked him if he had went somewhere. He nonchalantly answered that he went and hung out with his friend "Zach" they went and had a few beers. I felt he was lying so I checked his GPS history and he had went to the strip club and to two other houses. Now I've never had a reason not to trust him and have always felt absolutely adored. Now I'm just I'm shock. I don't like confortation but I had to ask. He admitted to going to the strip club and said that he didn't cheat. I broke down and later asked him why he didn't wake me up to tell me he was leaving as I wouldn't have minded him having a boys night but now all trust is broken. (He lied, snuck out and I'm sure more happened) I asked him why he went to these residences and his response was that he didn't do anything wrong. That he went out and got a lap dance, had a few beers and came home and that I could get over it or get out..

I'm so torn and sick, I feel my self esteem has been crushed with my trust in him. He blames my insecurities, anxieties and lack of trust as to why I still question what happened as I should believe him and get over it but idk I'm so torn.

I quit my job when I became pregnant (per his request) and feel hopeless in a way as I really just want to move out.