(Kind of long. please no judgement ❤)

When i was in 7th grade i began to self harm, i would cut myself on my ankles so they weren't noticeable, but at the same time back then for some reason back then i think i was doing it more for attention.

I'm 21 now and i just recently started cutting again, but it's not for attention. This last year I've been the most depressed I've ever been between financial situations, a miscarriage, and failed relationships. I've tried to commit suicide 3 times this year and think about it every day.

It started with every time the thought of suicide came up that's when i would cut myself. For some reason i put into my mind that "cutting is a better solution than suicide". It's been a release for me. Now it's gotten to the point of wanting to do it constantly. Whenever i get stressed, sad, before i go to bed.

I'm not too sure what I'm trying to get out of this post, i guess just needed somewhere to vent and looking for support ❤