He’s coming over!!! Part 3

So after the first failed experience... I promised a part 3 after jumping back on the market again.

So I went back on Zoosk. Dating app. And a reputable one too mind you lol. It’s not like a hookup site or anything. STILL, I know to be careful. And people let me tell you I have an interesting weekend ahead of me!!! So let me prepare you... lol

Ok so a month and a half ago I came across a young man. Lets call him R. Well R was among many other men on a dating app of course, and yet something about him stood out to me. Maybe it was because he seemed humble. Yet he had a beauty about him in the pictures that seemed strong, but aware of the world. Like he knew who he was, but maybe this whole dating app thing was new to him. Also, I noticed right away the dog tags he was wearing. Upon reading his profile it did state reserve/active duty army. I was curious about him. To be honest at this point I don't even recall who messaged who first. I think he messaged me, but perhaps it was because I 'smiled' at his profile which would have caught his attention obviously.

So R is a 28 year old active duty military man. Army. Is a mechanic. Was reserve for 7 years before going active. Has experience, and yes he is spirited but also quite mature. And by spirited I do not mean that he parties a lot or runs around. With his stories it becomes apparent he has had years of that. Has been more settled past couple years.

I found that I clicked with him fairly quickly. Hes amazing. And very secure. sure of who he is. Whats right and wrong. has a strong conviction. And a hell of a lot of passion. At the same time also demonstrates that he has a lot of self control also. He seems like he knows whats important. Hes 6 foot 3, green eyes, beautiful smile, but not the overly cocky asshole type at all. He takes my breath away.

We've been talking for a month and a half. Countless pictures, facetime, phone calls, conversations.

So some facts that are needed. This contract he is currently in ends in a year and a half. He disclosed to me that he doesn't want to resign afterward. He has been in the military for multiple years now and wants to go 'enjoy life with someone' and have his own place and have a family etc. He was a welder when in reserve so plans on doing that after he is finished with the military. His hometown is two hours from my home town. Which is kind of awesome. Whats more awesome is that he is on leave and home right now.

This guy is fully accepting of my two sons. I just finalized a divorce and he is also very supportive and understanding about why that happened and what I went through with my ex. He is very loving, attentive, stubborn, passionate, affectionate, humorous. He quite literally is everything I could have hoped to find. BUT....

no we have not met yet.

Tonight however..... is the night.

Yes we have had sexual conversations and strong desires for one another, he shows that he feels pretty deeply for me.. and a day doesn't go by that I dont speak to him, hear his voice, or feel his comfort. Maybe I am way in over my head? Maybe its a huge risk? But maybe also the fact that I only live once and I have to take chances sometimes pushes me to just.... try.

I know we are both nervous. Even with his grit and mindset and courage... I can tell he has been preparing himself mentally for the meeting. And yet when I jokingly tell him "now dont get cold feet on me! lol"... his response is simply.... "never'.

I am so intensely INTENSELY drawn to him. I fear I completely love who and what he is and the man that he is. And how scary is this?!?! I have seen him smile countless times, have spoken to him countless times... and the way his eyes look at me..... pure love in them. Genuine.

I face him... tonight.... and nerves or not.. this man is the type to completely sweep me off my feet.

I can sit here and dream of the rest of my life but know that realistically I cant expect that. I cant and wont expect anything. Because i am scared to death and nervous as hell!!!!

I will hold my shoulders back though.. ive got this...

I have a STRONG feeling however i am going to have one intense sexplanation to give tomorrow or this weekend. Stay tuned!!! And dont worry.. i have my license to carry and a 380, in case he ends up being the next Hannibal (LOL jk).

Wish me luck... and please everyone tell me how gorgeous I am and brilliant and worth the world to boost my confidence because im so nervous and have no clue why!!!!

I am going to DEVOUR this man!!!!!

***PART 4 posted 1 & 2!!!*