Past few days....

So the past few days have been hell and I know most will tell me to leave him.

On Sunday just before my other half was to take his end of the year racing pictures I got a message from some chick saying they they hooked up. Well I confronted him about her cause when I did find her number on our phone bill he told me I had nothing to worry about and they were just friends (I was fine with that and that she knew he had someone at home). I flat out asked him if I wasn’t good enough for him. He told me was sorry and that he was stupid. Well we took his picture and acted like a happy couple but we are far from it. That night I took a shower cause I felt dirty knowing this and I sat on the bed and cried and we talked.

Yesterday he went to work and I knew he might see her. Thank god he was training someone so that work right now with my trust issue now. He came home ate and then Laid in bed and talked more about the whole situation. He showed me that her phone number is no longer in his phone and that all the text have been deleted. Also that I can look at his phone when ever.

I love him and always will. If it wasn’t a 4 year relationship I would of been out the door. We have been threw so many losses and it’s only made us stronger. I’m giving him a chance another chance (knowing that this will be hard to get back to what we were) and I’m hoping that he sees what he has in front of him is worth everything.

Sorry for the long post I just needed to get this off my mind and chest. Please don’t judge me for staying with him. This is my decision and if he does it again then you will have every right to say I told you soo.