Hey do I keep doing this!!!! 2 week wait aggravation

Mandy • 💏2012 🎀👶🏼1/10/14👼🏻+👼🏻+👼🏻+👼🏻2019👼🏻6/30/19,👼🏻5/31/20

Ok so every single month I’m able to make it to about 7dpo and then it starts. I sit here and I’m like “hummm I really wanna test” so I do and obviously it’s a bfn so I’m like “ok ok I gotta stop while I’m ahead, I WILL make it to test day”. Next morning “well I felt nauseous that one second yesterday.....yea I need to test” and go figure another bfn but I sit here like a crazy person examining it all day in different lighting like it’s gonna change or something. Next day “i reallly think I saw a second line yesterday......yea I’m gonna test again” and guess what another bfn. I sit there and count how many tests I have left and realize I only have 2 left!!! So I’m like “ok enough enough Mandy you gotta wait until gets day”......next day “I don’t wanna waste my fmu what if today’s the day I’d get my bfp!” So I test and it’s an indent and I know it’s an indent but I sit there and look at it all day long examining it again like a crazy person and convince myself it’s a vvvvfl so I show hubby and he looks at me like crazy. And this continues until I either get my bfp or aunt flow shows up and ruins the party. Tell me I’m not alone on this