Angela..happy wife2yrs💑TTC 1st rainbow🌈👶👶twins • T₩!N$

So I've been wanting a baby ever since I got to know what they are. been married for 2 years and ttc for 2years with one very painful miscarriage at 5wks. How the hell am I not supposed to 'TRY'? OR THINK about getting pregnant? Someone please show me how NOT TO THINK ABOUT IT? It's ALL I think about everyday. Am I normal?