Started TTC in October 2017

Miscarried in March

Still trying to conceive, periods are regular, however twice I’ve ovulated a week late since March

My sister who had never showed any interest in kids just got married in September and my mom has been pressuring me to get pregnant (LIKE I HAVENT BEEN TRYING)

And today she slaps me with “if you don’t get pregnant, you might not be the first one to have a baby, because your sister has been talking about it”

My anxiety is already through the roof, like it’s been so bad it’s literally been causing me health problems

Seeing all my friends and people I grew up with getting pregnant one by one is already making me so sad and anxious

The LAST thing I need is for my sister to get pregnant before me

And I KNOW it doesn’t matter if she gets pregnant before me, but I just don’t need to have these sad feelings about it

we’ve been trying so hard. We’re both so ready for a baby and have been through hell and back

I don’t need competition to get pregnant 😭😭😭