Some people say its rape and others say it’s not

He was my exes best friend. We got together to talk about the failed relationship and flirted a little.

The next day we went to a party together and flirted and he told me he liked me, we hugged. My ex saw and we argued, being drunk and angry I said “well maybe I wanna sleep with him! Your opinion doesn’t really matter anymore!”

A couple days later I went to the friends house, we talked for a bit and I guess my ex had told him about what I said. I just kinda chuckled kind of unsure of what to say. He said “don’t tempt me with a good time.” And I looked away. He got up from his chair and got behind me and started kissing my neck and my cheek. I told him I was nervous and he said “well of course” and grabbed my hand and led me to the bedroom. He kissed me a little and told me to take my clothes off. So I did. He made comments about liking my body and I smiled a little being polite. Then he told me to get on the bed, so I did. He took his clothes off and it began. I wanted to ask for a condom but I was too nervous to. As soon as he was done he put his clothes on. I sat up and just sat there for a minute, and that’s when he asked “you wanted that right?” I said “yeah it’s fine” cause what difference does it make now. I finally got my clothes. We had small talk for a bit but I didn’t really know what to say. He said something like “why are you sad? You got what you wanted” and I said “idk I just feel sad.” He asked if I wanted to watch a movie or something. I told him I had to go home, so I gathered my jacket and purse and went to leave and he said “hey,” and grabbed my arm lightly and gave me a hug. I said bye and left.