Advice

My daughter was born at 35 weeks 4 days and required NICU time. She spent 6 days in the nicu before coming home now 11 days old. I was pumping every two hours to provide her breast milk for her feeding tube. Once she came home I’ve had nothing but issues with being engorged on one breast even with massaging and warm compressions. I am recovering from a csection as well an decided the other day that pumping is becoming stressful for me and I’m exhausted. I was lucky to get 25 ml- 30ml each time I pumped. I’ve been using cabbage in my bra but I’m still leaking what seems like a lot an now I’m regretting stopping and feel like I failed my baby girl. My question is, it being 2 days since I stopped pumping altogether, my boobs being soft, could I return to pumping an start gaining my supply back? I hate feeling in between on things but I feel emotional every time I think about it :(