35w ughhhh

I swear as it gets closer to haven my princess i have been feeling so many crazy things my hips my knee hurt i cant sleep heart every night like clock work and my the top of my belly hurts like why...

Im a ftm and i swear no one ever said pregnancy was so painfull i hear o its so beautiful and how you glow and all the beautiful stuff u do have if u have it. I have been blessed to have high blood pressure and diabetes along with throwing up my guts everyday and i cant sleep like ever i have huge bags under my eyes and all i want is to hold my baby i dont complain cause it took for ever for me to get here this far i had trouble getting pregnant then haven miscarriages and to have had gotten pregnant and nog know and make it this far i feel like everything i am going threw will be worth it. Just the only fear i have is birth lol i hear you poop on your self is this true i swear once i found out i vant help but fearing ima poop on the doctor i would be so embarrassed with everyone in the room lol sorry cant sleep and this is what's going threw my head...