I’m that “whore mom” and I want you to know...

RANT ⚠️ WARNING

I have somehow managed to raise 5 humans 3 cats, 2 dogs, and a hamster in my lifetime. I’ve had to lose more weight than most people I know have ever found. I’m tired all the time. A level of tired most humans will never know. My oldest, who is now an adult praise Jesus, has high functioning autism that was misdiagnosed for 18 years because he was verbal. He broke literally everything I owned. I became the custodial parent of my neighbors children when he was 10 and they were 2-15. Their mom went to prison while I was babysitting and they were placed with me. I dealt with addiction and mental health at the same time. I’m not dead. Somehow lol.

I was able to keep myself (and them) off the streets by working non-traditional jobs where I could make decent money and still go home every time there was a call from a school official, social worker, court date, emotional outburst, or soccer game.

I worked overnights at a strip club, in the kitchen. Then when things got worse and I had to be home 24/7 one of the strippers told me about cam sites where you can make good money without leaving home. By working cam sites (stripping on a computer basically) I made enough money to survive. I worked in a locked room when all the kids were in school or asleep.

I never left my day job as a model and background actress, but I wasn’t getting much work. You’re model geriatric at the age of 25, and I couldn’t commit to showing up on job sites halfway across the world (or even the country) anymore.

So I’m that mom who all the others hate. I drop my son off at school and his friends scream “milf! milf! milf!” They whisper “there goes that whore” when I walk by. They go out of their way to make me want to regret it.

My adopted children: the oldest just graduated from University and is working toward her doctorate. Her sister is married with 2 kids and 1 on the way, working full time at a bakery. Their brother, who is the same age as my son, just graduated high school with honours. My son will graduate this summer and already has a part time job.

I have spent the last 19 years in and out of therapists, social workers, doctors offices, principals offices, literally throwing the girls’ Eeny meeny bikinis in the trash in the day while having to wear one, or nothing, to support them at night.

I know a lot of people think I “could have done something else”... around here, I also know how many of them are housewives being supported by their husbands income who have never attempted to raise even one special needs child.

I consider myself better off than some. I know a woman who literally turned to prostitution in order to have the free time and money to pay for her son’s medical care. He was severely mentally delayed, still in diapers at 11 and she was saving up for a wheelchair while carrying the dead weight of an 11 year old around the house.

I don’t think anyone...any woman chooses to be a “whore” and put herself at extreme risk of stalking or assault. Some of what I saw at the strip club made me feel a thousand times safer on the cams. Nobody should be put in the position of being ostracized by her community for...what?

I don’t smoke, drink, use drugs, party, blast my music, or sleep with randoms. Haven’t even had sex in like 8 years. Unlike them I’m not sleeping with everyone’s husband and trying to flirt with teenagers. I’m not doing anything for money they don’t do for free.

Rant over. Feel free to hate me I’m used to it. Probably won’t read the comments.