I don’t even want to test anymore 😭

I’m 25 dpo and have had 6 BFNs. I’m fairly regular with the exception of a few months that were long and I never ovulated after I had an early miscarriage. The past 3 months though have been like clock work. We BD all through this month and I got a positive opk and physical symptoms of ovulation as well. I was super hopeful! And when AF didn’t come, I was really excited! We’ve been trying for a year, and because BFN hurt so much I only test once my period is late. Now I think I won’t test until it’s 2 weeks late because I just can’t take it. I’m having some symptoms. Breast pain/tenderness that is way different than my normal breast pain during my cycle. Gas, oh the gas! Super thirsty and my eyes have been really dry. My bbt has stayed elevated. CP is high and closed. And CM has been extra creamy and lots of it...sorry tmi. I’m just so frustrated. My SO keeps asking everyday if I’m still pregnant, and it literally kills me. I’ve had to ask him to stop asking because I instantly breakdown every time. Has anyone else gotten a BFP this far out? I’ll be calling my doctor for a blood test if AF doesn’t show up by the 2 week mark on Monday.