Twin birth

I’m 29 weeks pregnant and terrified of giving birth. ESPECIALLY TWICE! I had a daughter in 2014 and I was just as scared but I literally blocked it out until the moment they told me I had to push. They closed the door and the panic set in, I legit told them I couldn’t do it. I had an epidural and I really don’t remember feeling pain but the thought of doing it again is making me nervous already. Probably because I have a memory to think back to now. Her birth was so easy, I am so grateful for how blessed I was. But now I have to push twice.... how are other moms feeling? Any encouragement?

I know I might end up having a c section, but I’m just as terrified of that outcome. I want to get back home to my oldest and be as mobile as possible for my babies 😩 I see no good option here lol