I had an abortion in april even tho i REALLY didnt want to. I kept crying so hard and the clinic sent me back home and i had to reschedule. I was so sad and broken hearted. My lil otis would of been born this past 4th.... a Christmas baby. His heart beat so hard for me, i could just see him now in Heaven just born from an Angel in his new mommys arms. I love my baby and i bought him a birthday gift and on the way is his first Christmas ornament. My man came in me when we made love on Otis's birthday, i am hoping a new baby is being made. It would ease my pain and remind me everything happens for a reason.