Sorry ladies, I feel like Ive been posting alot lately but I am just so fustrated and angry. I was told on Friday that the baby has no heartbeat. They gave me pills at the hospital to get it going but I still have not passed everything. I only passed a few clots and that was it. Monday I bounced around from place to place trying to find a doctor to do a D&C with sedation. I eventually gave up and just called my insurance. Spent an hour on the phone with them and they called around trying to help me. I also called my doctor's office so they can refer me since my doctor isnt back until the 17th. They finally called me yesterday to refer me to a doctor (I have HMO) and I called.. didnt hear back. I called today and the lady told me the doctor cant do it because it needs to be done this week and she is booked.. so I called the doctor my insurance sent me (even though he seems sketchy and has really bad reviews and has even been sued). Now I am just waiting to get a call back. Why do I have to jump through all these hoops? I feel like it shouldnt have to be this difficult. This is all because I asked to have a D&C WITH sedation! Why would I have a D&C while awake!? This is such a mess. I just want to move forward. I am at a point where Ima just let myself get an infection and head to the ER.. maybe then someone will help me get this damn procesure. Again, I am sorry ladies.. I am just pissed.