Looking for advice

Raven

Hello other ladies! So back in May 2017, I found out I was pregnant after four days of a missed period. The father never wanted children, and I told him over text while we were long distance that I was pregnant because I was terrified by his reaction. He didn’t take it well at all and my pregnancy was basically us pretending like I wasnt pregnant after deciding he wanted an abortion and I didn’t. Fast forward to February 2018, she was born almost two weeks late by emergency c section. It was terrifying and I did it alone in the hospital. He didn’t see her until she was two days old. Now we live together and he loves her so much and she is obsessed with him. She’s ten months old. Well my period is now 8 days late, and I’m freaking out again. We have already discussed previously that having a baby may be okay in the future, but our daughter is ten months old and I feel like this is waaay too soon. I make barely anything on maternity leave and I haven’t even taken a pregnancy test because I am a nervous wreck.

What should I do? I have it planned to tell him tomorrow that my period is late since he has Saturdays and sundays off. I haven’t even bought a test because of what it might say but I have to face reality eventually. How should I tell him my period is late? Just blurt it out or ease into it? Not going to lie, raising one child has been a handful. I’m on birth control and he’s stupid for not wearing condoms all the time. We both have real jobs and adults before anyone comes in saying negative things.

Its just the last time I told him, it was havoc and anger everytime we talked and we broke up over it. His family shunned me until they met her at two months old. It was just an awful time and it wasn’t a magical pregnancy. His mom already says “no more babies” everytime I bring up that I miss her being a newborn. Also the c section part was super scary.

Please give advice on how I should tell him, and bring it up. I won’t be taking a test until I admit my period is late and he lets that sink in. Help me ladies please, my brain is just all over the place. Thank you ❤️

A photo of our family to show we are happy together, just had a rough pregnancy and announcement not too long ago