Idfk what to do anymore

Since clearly your show is more important than I am, and all I want is to just be payed attention to or talked to like is that so fucking hard for you to do (well I guess since you never listen to me anyway). Seriously even especially right now I’m going through shit, I’m freaking out you don’t fucking notice, my period hasn’t come yet, test all come back the same, I’m 3 days late with no answer. (When my period always comes on time every month) I feel like complete shit, I feel like I’m gonna puke different times throughout the day. All I want is to just be comforted, to be told it will be okay we’ll figure it out babe. Seriously I shouldn’t be on the other side of the room trying to google answers trying to figure this out on my fucking own. guess if I am pregnant this is how it’s gonna be, and if it is your not gonna have shit to do with me or my child since you can’t even make sure I’m fucking okay, You don’t even come to talk to me to see if anything else is wrong your nothing but a pos, you rather watch your dumb ass fucking show than make sure I’m fine when I’m not okay idk what’s going on all I know is it’s weird I don’t feel right i feel completely opposite of what I should around this time. So it’s either stop playing like you don’t fucking care unless you really don’t before I fucking leave and find me a guy who does care and won’t fucking watch tv when we’re going through something like this. Guess I’ll just lay in bed all fucking day since you don’t care you don’t care about me you don’t care about anything so I hope you learn your lesson quick bc i don’t fucking care if I break your heart i don’t fucking care if I hurt you since you clearly don’t care that your hurting me right now.