One year ago today, after 2 weeks of unknown possibilities (miscarriage/vanishing twin), I was diagnosed with an ectopic pregnancy and treated with a dose of MTX. Going through the ups and downs of possibilities prior to the diagnosis and the sadness, loss, and mourning after the treatment was by far the hardest thing I have ever gone through. I felt alone although my husband was experiencing the pain of the loss as well.

I am here to tell you, those of you going through this hell and whirlwind of pain, that it does get better. I’m here to tell you this, as I hold, kiss, and cuddle my one month old, healthy daughter, that it does get better. You will heal. You will be able to move on. You will get your rainbow baby.

Sending you love and healing thoughts.