Today is such a confusing mess of emotions. I woke up with a pit of sadness in my stomach, like I had been having a terrible dream or something. I realized why and that it wasn't a dream...I'd lost my baby just the day before. I got up and went through the motions, thinking I actually felt pretty good. I must be so resilient, right? Well, when I found out that a Christmas gift I had ordered wouldn't arrive on time, I lost my shit. All of it. I'm mad at God, I'm hopeful and praying to God, I'm exhausted and sad and yet finding myself grateful that I got pregnant at all. I'd been wondering if something was wrong bc it had been months without anything; at least conception is a silver lining, as my doctor pointed out. I feel the hormones coursing through my veins. Has anyone had success conceiving shortly after an early miscarriage? I'm trying to hold on to that hope rather than veering the other way and drowning in the negative. So much baby dust to all of you hopeful Mama's and expectant ladies 💕💕