So I’m a recovered Ana or so I thought. I started smoking weed early in my recovery to help w appetite and it worked wonders. I was able to eat without guilt and slowly learned to love my body again. And recently I had to stop smoking in order to pass a drug test and everything was going fine I thought. I was easily able to stop smoking so I know I didn’t have an addiction but after about a month I weighed myself and I realized I had lost about 15 pounds. And so I started to pay more attention and I realized that I hadn’t been eating. This wasn’t intentional at all and it’s been freaking me out because I have no appetite. I also have seasonal depression and I was thinking maybe it was a side effect of that bc I have no motivation to eat. But either way it’s bringing up a triggering subject and I have no idea what to do. I’m really scared to relapse and I’m scared that this is the start of it. I also recently lost health insurance so I can’t see a profession bc I can’t afford it and I don’t know what to do. Sorry this is so long but if you have any advise please help me