Does me being into knife play with a history of self harm mean I relapsed..?

mady

TRIGGER WARNING I’m into BDSM, as a brat sub. I like knife play. But I have had a history of self harm with Hospitalization due to it. Does me being into knife play mean I relapsed every time we do that? Also, does me being a past self harmer make me more prone to a masochist?

I opened up

to a friend about it and she was severely concerned. This picture is what my dom (sadist) had done the last time we played.