I’m over the moon about having our first baby, but lately I’ve been kind of depressed. I haven’t been able to find the joy of Christmas this year. I just don’t know what’s wrong with me. I love Christmas time and decorating our tree and watching classic Christmas movies has always made me smile. But this year is different. Nothing bad has happened and my husband is so good to me, I’m just not happy for some reason.

And I’ve been battling with assurance of salvation. I know I’m saved, but I’m scared to death about going to Hell. I’ve prayed about it, talked to a pastor, and read several blogs written by evangelists, but I can’t seem to find peace. I still feel the moving of the Holy Spirit. I know God’s word is true. I know Jesus died for my sins and is coming back soon. But I can’t find peace.

Has anyone else experienced this? I deal with anxiety anyway and I’m not sure if the pregnancy hormones have anything to do with it or if stress could be a factor. I’ve gone into a full panic thinking about going to Hell. Reading, praying, and speaking with someone has helped a little, but it’s only a temporary fix. I know God loves me and won’t let me go to Hell if I love Him and live for Him, I just want to be confident in where I’m going when I die.