Should I feel bad about this?

So for christmas my boyfriend of 4.5 years got me a kind of, unexpected? gift.

Like I was really hoping he would propose, 1 because we met on christmas eve and it would have been romantic as fuck and 2 it seemed like maybe he had been dropping hints?

A few examples:

He went to a co-workers wedding recently and texted me about how he loved the venue and how he loved their decorations, but “when we get married he wants to do more fairy lights than they did.”

Straight up told me while we were in target the other day that he had called one of my friends to ask for advice on my christmas present, and she told him that I wanted a ring

We’ve been watching a lot of baking show lately and be said something along the lines of “thats the kind of cake we should have at our wedding”

This is just a few examples, but for a while now it’s felt like he had dropping hints. And so for christmas I got an immersion blender. Which is a really nice gift if you make a lot of soups. But lord knows I can’t cook.

And at first I was super excited about the blender, because they’re cool, but now that I’ve realized I have absolutely no use for the thing I’m kind of like wtf?

And I don’t want to come off as ungrateful, because he was so excited about it, like he kept saying “oh it’s something you’ve said you wanted” and “I think I did really well this year,” but I’m kind of super disappointed?

Idk do I have a right to be upset about this?