I'm sorry for the constant posting about my situation that I can't openly talk about just yet.. but writing this out and my feelings help some so if you don't like it please don't read my post I will NOT be answering questions about my situation so please do not ask them I will answer when I emotionally can do so thanks... anyways I miss my husband I'm just re-reading our conversations I miss him holding me his voice his I love yous baby girl the way he would pick up and help me with our babies in the morning before he went off to work or when I was making dinner I miss our home our cars our sense of safety I only have pictures of my babies belongings I was going through everything in our home tonight with my husbands friend that has became family to my kids and I. Our babies are still new and with everything going on I have to figure it all out but we will be a family someday soon.. my husband my better half my children's daddy we (S-our friend) and myself will tell them everything within time and if they ask thank you for everything you ever did/done/do for me thank you for your unconditional love support and respect thank you for buying my wedding ring that I will forever and always wear and eventually pass on to our daughter I love and miss you so so bad I cry nightly after I put littles to sleep I constantly catch myself asking what would you do?! What would've your birthday be like? What would've Christmas been like this year and the years to come? I fucking miss you so much and thank you for sending me S to keep me saine and safe baby I will never ever forget you you'll be okay and with us again someday soon I will stay strong through all of this I miss your don't worry baby girl I got you😭💕 come snuggle with meeee"💔 the way my strong amazing husband love you beyond measure 😭😭😭😍💕💙🙏🙏🙏 and your amazing mother and father have been so good to me and the kids even offered to help me get out my feet again! But with tons and tons of prayers we will all be okay don't you worry baby