Maybe he cheated because I’m not what he wanted

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My child’s father cheated on me a lot when we were together. While I was pregnant with our 2kids it didn’t matter to him. I feel like I wasn’t good enough and that’s what’s hurting me . I feel ugly . I seen the type of girls he went for and they looked better than me like totally a different type. How do I get past this feeling? It’s horrible. I don’t even want to be with him again it’s just the damage from the relationship has really taken a toll on my self confidence. Advice?