Do I look my weight?

Does it look like I weigh 228lb ? I’m 17yr. I’m curious but some days I feel like I look fat and other day I feel good about my body. Is it just me ? Is my mind making me see what I wanna see ? Because when someone else takes a picture of me I look so big and I start to panic if that’s how people see me everyday . It’s really hard to love myself sometimes recently I’ve been keeping track of how many calories I have and started doing exercise more often but my weight has been shifting back and forth between 223-228 lb