I feel like a monster

Before my pregnancy I was already dealing with anxiety disorder, it took a lot out of me to go places & what not. Now that I’m pregnant I feel like it’s worse, being afraid of having a panic attack plus out of no where dealing with nausea if I’m out somewhere. I guess I’m just scared of everything. I sometimes feel in regret, like I should’ve waited. On top of that now I’m in bed rest because I was spotting & they told me I had blood between my uterus & placenta. I just feel like a horrible human being, like so many girls wish they could carry their babies & me being lucky to be able to, is so afraid of the symptoms that can’t even focus on the baby itself...