I’m pregnant but I couldn’t help feeling away from some of my families. The most important one is my cousin. I know all she really wants is to have a baby, but she is going through divorce and already 33 year old, which means she can be really sensitive towards pregnancy topics. I love her and I don’t want to hurt her in any way. I’m very low key on my pregnancy. I didn’t have pregnancy announcement or gender announcement. I barely talked about myself in family events.

Sometimes I’m tired of protecting her feelings and just want to stay away from her. I never know what I could have said that would make her feel bad. She always “pretend” to be strong, but I know her too well that she is not entirely ok. I’m sad that we will part ways from here. I have very few families... I can’t believe that I can’t share this journey with someone I care.