2019 is here....woohoo 🙄...I’m sitting here by myself on the couch while my husband is sleeping (as usual on New Years or any holiday for that matter). I’m depressed about not getting pregnant in 2018 especially since my sister-in-law announced she’s pregnant yesterday and I had to find out via Facebook when my husband had already known for days. (I don’t particularly care for any of my in-laws). So I’ve been crying-alone. Not to mention I have to go back to work soon after being off for two weeks.

I’m a middle school teacher so I’ve been out for Christmas break. I absolutely DREAD going back to work. I literally have that gut punched feeling about it. Don’t get me wrong, I absolutely LOVE my students and the school I work at! They’re not the problem at all! I have the worst co-worker in which I work with every...single...day. Here lately she’s been taking off without getting a sub or someone to cover her classes. So that leaves me not only watching my classes and taking care of my responsibilities but watching hers too. That leaves me with 70 kids for 7 class periods without a planning or break! I barely have the time to pee. I’ve gone to my assistant principal about it and they agree with me yet nothing is done about it! I avoid confrontation with my coworker because she’s one of those people who will turn the tables on me and make it look like I’m wrong and being selfish and it’ll only make work even more dreadful. I already have problems getting out of bed to go to work in the mornings because of her. I never know what crap she’s going to pull. She always claims to have a headache which turns into her laying her head on her desk and not watching her classes because her “head is going to explode.” Even when she’s at work, she finds something in the building she just has to go and take care of and it usually takes a minimum of one class period. Sometimes she’s on her laptop doing personal stuff or sometimes she’s just on her laptop watching Netflix while I’m the one that’s doing the teaching of both classes. So even if she’s physically there, she’s still not doing her job. I’m just tired of being stepped on. I’ve got to get a better mentality or I’m going to lose my mind. Stress balls just don’t work anymore! Lol