Please take the time to read this!

I’m completely head over heels for my man, he is everything I’ve wanted and is such an amazing guy. He knows that I was sexually abused and that I haven’t been able to get comfortable enough with myself to masturbate, and when I do it feels like nothing no matter what I try, which is really frustrating. Last night we were together, we made out a couple times and then I told him that I was ready to try fingering (I feel like I could get pleasure from him doing it rather than myself cause he really turns me on and it’s just different so I wanted to try). The first thing he said was “lay down for a few minutes and make sure you’re ready”, I love this man so much. I waited, thought about it some more, and told him again. He laid me down so that I was comfortable then started to get me in the mood so that it would all work. He asked if I was more comfortable taking off my pants or if he should do it, then he was very slow in removing my underwear, then he just stuck out his hand and he said guide me. He didn’t want to make me uncomfortable and wanted to make sure it was pleasurable for me so he wanted me to control it. I had him start with just touching my clit, didn’t feel like anything. Then I said that he could put one finger in, didn’t feel like anything. I was going to tell him to use two fingers but then I started to get in my head and thought that I was broken cause that didn’t feel like anything, and him kissing down my neck didn’t feel like anything. He could tell something was off, stopped, helped me put my clothes back on, then just held me and told me that we’d work on it together and that it would get better.

My question is, how do I fix this? I don’t know if it’s an issue with getting relaxed or if it’s just me