Long post but need to vent;

So I quit my job I had for a year in October. I had a really hard time focusing on school with my anxiety and depression. Then this Thanksgiving wasn't much better because my family has been having a lot of feuds and disagreements. The worst was a few days before Christmas, finding out my brother in law and the father to my two youngest nieces (2 years old and 3 months old) was diagnosed with stage 4 lymphoma and was at the hospital on Christmas. :( I have been there for my sister, my nieces and nephew, as well as helping out in her household while she was at the hospital with my BIL. After he started chemo he was released on my sisters birthday which was December 29th. Things were looking up then new years night me and my brother got into a physical altercation because he was really drunk..

Then to top all of these things off, the job I was hoping to start my career off with denied me because of things on my credit.. it has been really depressing and I am hoping 2019 will be much better because this pain is the worst ever 😪☹😫