Dear Family

Dear Family,

I know my status in our family is I am the "fixer" it is expected I put other first. These are unspoken family rules. I know this is how it has always been however, I no longer accept this.

This is a new year and as I embrace my new family and my loving husband and our to be child this spring I deserve to be left alone by the ungrateful and the takers that hide and call themselves family.

I am not angry about my abusive childhood, I am not angry about being the caregiver to an abuser, I am not bitter about saving our family 20k by me taking on the legal burden of the estate. I am not even remotely upset you've ran my good name through the mud to make yourselves feel better.

I can let these go because I am secure as a person and whole enough to know come my judgment day God will sit with me and tell me I've done my best and what was good for everyone else above myself. He will say I was not run by greed or ego that I had a pure heart. That I did what most could not imagine and I did it because it was right not easy.

I have come to find peace in knowing I will never get an apology, gratitude, or understanding from my family. I find peace because for me and my husband and our unborn child we are choosing a different path then the one I was taught.

I am choosing peace I no longer will be a scapegoat. I will no longer be taken advantage of for my big heart. There will be boundaries. Family or not it is not my job or my role any longer to "fix" everything. Just because you lay down blame at my feet does not mean I have to pick it up.

Sincerely,

No longer the "Fixer"