Hoping and Praying

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I don't know how to react to my US today. I had both done but we could not see a fetus. I am exactly 10 weeks today according to my LMP. I still have symptoms and positive pregnancy test. No pain or bleeding to indicate a miscarry. I am perplexed at what is happening right now. All I have been doing is crying on and off. The doctor wasn't in the office as of yet, so waiting to hear his interpretation. My daughter asked "Could the baby be hiding"? I didn't have an answer for her but I'm hoping and praying that that is what's going on.

**UPDATE**

So dreading the doctor call(which I figured he would). The news that no mother wants to face; the doctors confirmation: NOT A VIABLE PREGNANCY. I asked could measurements determine when he said it looks like it was around 9weeks. Of course I'm crying in his ear and I can tell in his voice, he's sympathetic and generally cares even though he doesn't know me. So Monday I go to him to go over my options. I don't know how to feel about this.

**UPDATE 1/7/19**

So went to see the doctor and had another scan before deciding my options. Still no baby *confirmation Anembryonic pregnancy/Blighted Ovum* I was praying maybe with a tilted uterus the baby would show this time; with 3 other children I knew what should have been seen on the US. I opted to take the pills, so if nothing happens by Friday-pop goes the weasel.