Either 8 or 9 dpo and trying so hard to be patient!

I’m having a very difficult time waiting to test even though I know it’s likely still too early. I think I have a completely irrational feeling that early testing jinxes me, because in my past TTC experiences the months I tested early I didn’t turn out to be pregnant and the months I forced myself to wait until AF was due were the times I got BFPs. But in spite of this, I’m still dying to open the 3 pack of FRERs currently in my bathroom 😂 Anyone else trying to hold out?