so since winter of 2017 i’ve just decided i feel too skinny. at the time i weighed 125 but was used to being 135. i started taking this stuff called apetamin to help me gain the weight back. i did; i got back up to 135 ish and stopped taking it. i started losing it again months later.

so even more months later around september 2018 i took only a little and was forcing myself to eat. i got up to 140 and was feeling and looking great. now jan 2019 i’m down to 123 i have no appetite and i just keep losing and losing. i’m unhappy with how skinny i am and everyone just brushes it off because “skinny is pretty” by no means am i saying i want to be fat but i want some meat on my bones!

my friend is a little chunkier and she is obsessed with being really skinny, she’s constantly telling me how skinny i am and i need to be happy because most people want my body.

and my mom just tells me my metabolism will slow down and my body will naturally gain and keep weight as i age.

am i crazy? does anyone else relate? any suggestions or advise? i feel so stuck, like no one relates.

this is me now at 123