support...anyone?

I guess I’m posting on here because I am very stressed and depressed about what is going on right now with my pregnancy and health.

If you would have met me 5-6 years ago, you would have never thought I’d be going through this today. I was in my average weight (size2-4) very active (taught Zumba 4-5 times a week), and ate a fairly healthy diet.

Fast forward to today, and I have been diagnosed with fatty liver (almost two years ago), struggle to lose weight (pre-pregnancy size 6), and right before I got pregnant, I was prediabetic (fasting level of 95). In fact, my dr. had suggested a retest 3 months from Oct. Diabetes runs in my family....my grandpa passed away from complications and my mom has it.

In November I found out I was pregnant and I couldn’t be happier - this is what I’ve always wanted. It was a planned pregnancy, and I was trying to get healthy for when a baby came. Well, baby came way sooner than we expected - we had only been planning it for about 2-3 months, so we are truly blessed.

After my obgyn learned about my family’s diabetic history, she told me from the get go that I’d be screened for diabetes sooner than usual. I took the 1 hr test and got a reading of 167, which is higher than the normal range (140 or below). I have come back for a 3 hr test, and I am totally freaking out, thinking the worst and trying to deal with this. I am pretty sure my results will show that I am probably diabetic. While I always knew this was in my genes, I didnt expect to be dealing with it at 33 years old.

I have to be honest and admit I let go of my healthy lifestyle once I started graduate school - full-time job and graduate school definitely took a toll on my health. I am finally done with my Masters, but I am paying a high price. I know stress is not good for my baby (I am

13 weeks pregnant), but I can’t help to feel this way.

Any words of encouragement would help right now. If you are going through something like this, I’d appreciate any advice. This is definitely not what I wanted to experience during my first pregnancy 😞