Hi so I’m dating guy for about 9 months now. We have a large age gap. 17 years apart and I am in my early 30s.

When I met this man things began to change. He made me feel special. He did everything to make me happy. He went out his way for me and still does. He loves me ( I am not in love yet) I care for him immensely though. He respect me and my kids and he wants the things I want in life.

What I take away from this relationship is he was married 18 years before meeting me. He had a whole life planed with another woman. I’ll also add he told me she got half of all his things, including his pension, She got the house , the kids and half of 500k he had saved from working. He told me these things because he felt I should know everything because he said he wants marriage again and he wants that with me possibly. He claims no one had ever made him feel the way he feels now. In my head I’m thinking it’s because he is excited about having a young woman , sexy and gorgeous on his arm after his wife cheated on him he got better. Then I convinced myself to think positive.

Anyway he is almost 50 not quite but doesn’t look it too bad but his walk says it all. He kind of had this old man walk as if he stumbling or has a bad leg. But he claims there is nothing wrong. He also can’t be spontaneous with sex because he needs to take viagara Atleast 1 hour before to make his dick stand and stay. His face looks young from far away but closer you can see how the age gots him accusations weight in the face and next, it’s weird because he has broad shoulders so his head looks like it’s connected to shoulders. Lastly his penis is like size 5.5/6 and he had never in all his life shaved. I was horrified when I saw it and was a little taken from the stench. He has shaved now. His balls dont hang because he has some weight in that area and they connect to the fat. I guess all the hair didn’t help either. We had sex a few times and oral sex feels like he is sucking a lol pop and face so deep in my vagina that I don’t know how he could breath. And for the sex ... well he didn’t stay hard but he was successful sometime.

Ok ok so I Don’t want you to think I’m beating him up purposely. I just want to be honest and get advice what to do.

He is so amazing as a person. Friend. He is romantic. Family oriented. Honest. I can’t see myself just ditching someone for the intimacy. But maybe I’m learning something new, that it may be something that I need for my age in my earl early 30s. Yes I can see my life with him but it’s the physical and sexual attraction im stuck with. So lost 😔

Help ladies.