Yesterday I ran into an old friend who is older than me she’s like a big sister, her son who is about my age is getting married and she wanted to invite me the wedding.

She asked how io was and if I was with the same guy(3 1/2 years) I said yes. She asked when I was getting married. I told we would have to ask him.

We are both 30 and been living together for 2 years. Anytime I bring up marriage he shuts me down fast.

I can’t really stop thinking about it because I am ready. I’m ready to be married, and have children, I feel my clock ticking. I never wanted kids before marriage. He is totally fine knocking me up. He has another child from a previous fling,( I say fling because they never dated, just sex)

Anyhoo, with my friend bringing this up some how we got on the topic of marriage. He told me that I am perfect it’s not me it’s him. He says any guy would want to marry me. I’m smart, beautiful, great career, independent, but most of all loving and attentive. But he’s not ready and he can’t say when he will be.

After him saying this is kinda are me sick. I don’t wanna rush this man. How can he say I’m perfect but still not ready. I’m now realizing I’m wasting my time on a man who may never be ready. I think I need to let it go. I know I deserve so much more than what I’m getting all because he’s not ready no fair 😔l