trigger warning ⚠️

I have struggled my whole life with eating habits, when i was younger i would binge eat and sneak food into my room and eat it secretly. I gained a LOT of weight doing this. Around march i hit my heaviest weight of 210 pounds. I hated every bit of it, i tried diets obsessively. But now i overly restrict myself from eating and i feel like this is never ending.. my family doesn’t believe anything i say anymore. So im kinda alone in this.