Advice?

Im scared im going to die. I cant even take when they put that thing in me (forget what its called) to open my vagina. It hurts like hell😭 what if i cant push out the baby!? I have really bad anxiety and starting to have panic attacks. I feel like if i cant push out my baby im going to die. I cry myself to sleep thinking what if i cant do it what if my body cant handle it. I fear death is like before you were born. What can you remember? Nothing! Its like you didnt exisit. I don't want to not exist i dont want to just disappear and be nothing. I dont want to stop thinking or breathing. Im so scared and don't know who to talk to.