Rainbow Baby 🤞🤞

In early September 2017 my husband and I got pregnant on our first try 😮❤ but unfortunately lost our baby a few weeks later. The healing process was difficult and depressing. We hadn't told anyone we were pregnant but I needed support during the miscarriage. I ended up having very sad phone conversations with my mom and sister, involving a lot of crying.

So many things I had read said not to tell anyone until you were through the first trimester, in case something were to go wrong. Well, it did go wrong and I ended up telling them anyway. I was upset that I never got to have that joy and excitement with them when I first found out I was pregnant. Instead it was only tears and hugs and comforting words. I told my husband that if and when we got pregnant again I would want to tell my family right away. Obviously not post on Facebook, but I want my immediate family and best friend(s) to know.

We waited 2 cycles (per advice from my OB) and started trying again. Our first month was unsuccessful, which was a lot harder to accept than I anticipated. Seeing that my period had come was just a reminder of what I had gone through in September, and made me feel like maybe we only had that one chance and would never get pregnant again.

We continued trying and I just knew I was pregnant again. I could feel it. Right away. I mean instantly after we had sex (I had felt the same way the first time we got pregnant, too). I even noticed that my sense of smell was heightened. We were at a store and I told the lady behind the counter that she smelled great. She blushed and smiled and smelled herself and said, "I don't think that's me" and I said, "Yes it is. Maybe it's your shampoo, but you smell really nice!" Haha!

I anxiously waited until it was time to pee on a stick, but unfortunately two days in a row they came back negative. I swore I could see an extremely faint line on the first test but my husband could not.

I was obviously sad but I still felt like I was pregnant. So I waited a couple more days and ....

I peed, put down the test, and my husband and I both watched the lines appear within seconds! He immediately said, "I see two lines now!" 😁 We hugged. I cried. A lot. We're pregnant!! Again! 😁😭😂❤😁

Now I have many emotions going through me. I know we are very lucky and blessed to have gotten pregnant so easily both times. But I'm still scared and a bit stressed out. I'm so nervous that this baby isn't going to stick, but I am so extremely excited that it happened again! I know I'm going to be super cautious. I definitely want to tell our families right away this time. No matter the outcome. Just have to decide how and when!

Sorry this post is so long! I just wanted to share my whole saga with someone haha 😊😊. I love that we have this community of women to talk to and cry with and experience wonderful moments with. Thank you for being there for me when I was heartbroken and for helping pick me up. Thank you for being an ear to listen and for being someone to get advice from. Good luck to all of you and please pray with me that this rainbow baby continues growing!!! 🤞🤞🤞