Trigger warning*** May 16th 2018 my ex-husband walked into my home and shot me and my three babies. All I ever knew was to be a mom that's all I ever wanted to be. Lately I've been seeing a gentleman I dated in high school so we're technically High School sweethearts. He wants to start a family. I want that too. However it makes me feel like I'm a bad person like I am replacing my babies. I see a therapist once a week since everything happened and it does nothing. I mean would you start a family if you wait for death on a daily basis? To be honest I know I would love my next child as much as I love my angels.