A ray of hope

I am posting this in the hopes that it encourages someone who is in the place I was in not long ago.

In September of 2017 I suffered my fifth loss just a week after finding out about my pregnancy. I was, of course, devastated. After that loss I couldn't seem to get pregnant at all. I had no answers as to why I was losing my babies, especially since I have a healthy five year old son that was from my first pregnancy ever and never had a single issue throughout the nine months. My OB just scratched her head and scheduled me an appointment to have tons of tests done to try and determine what was going wrong. In the last couple weeks leading up to my appointment full of testing my period never came. I was 14 days late, but all my pregnancy tests were negative. I grew very concerned about my health. Then, finally, the day before my appointment I got a very faint positive! At my appointment my OB also got a very faint positive. But upon doing an ultrasound there were zero signs of a baby whatsoever. I was sent home with very little assurance of any type and had to go to the doctor 3 more times for bloodwork to track my hcg levels. They were going up, but not correctly. We also learned my body wasn't producing progesterone like it was supposed to in order to sustain a pregnancy. I was sent home with some prescriptions and a warning to be

prepared for the possibility of yet another miscarriage. For weeks I took my medicine religiously and prayed incessantly. The next time I got an ultrasound there my little bean was! Growing right on track with a strong heartbeat😍

I was still told to proceed with caution, but had a good amount of hope that my baby would make it. We reached the "safety net" at 12 weeks and were able to announce our little rainbow to our family and friends! A few weeks later we got to learn the gender of our rainbow baby!❤

I was beyond elated to find out I was going to get to continue my journey as a "boy mom". My son was also overjoyed to learn his upcoming sibling was a brother like he requested😂❤ We continued on in bliss until I was told at 22 weeks, after my OB anatomy scan, that I was being placed on their high risk watch and that my son may be born prematurely. He was/is extremely healthy. But my body doesn't seem to be holding up for him as it should. Now we've made it to 27 weeks+4 days and are still going strong!

We only have one trimester left before his due date!! Every day of pregnancy is a blessing and continues to heighten his chances of surviving and thriving if he does come earlier than planned. Either way my rainbow baby is here, fighting, and planning to stay!!😀

I said all that to say DON'T GIVE UP! NEVER GIVE UP! Though the heartache and emptiness from any loss you suffer will never go away eventually a rainbow will come your way and give you new hope, a new love, a new faith and happiness. You WILL get your rainbow! You will make it!

If you read all this I hope I've managed to make you feel more at ease or to have given you some new hope. You deserve it and I'm rooting for you❤