My husband was raised by his grandmother, hes never really been close to his mom so his grandmother is more like his mom. She went into the hospital 2 days before christmas due to her retaining alot of water and her congestive heart failure. She was transfered to a rehab Friday morning, Well friday night his dad and step mom who he has became alot closer to since I came into his life had taken our 1 week old so we could catch up on sleep as Neither one of us has had much sleep between the new baby and our 16 month old. On saturday his dad came to pick us up so we could go over to their house to watch football and spend time with them(me I just really wanted to have my baby back around me) well we were on the way back after picking up dinner and his dad gets a call from the rehab informing him that my husbands grandmother coded and was being transported to hospital and it wasnt good. His step mom told us to call all the grandkids and tell them to get to hospital. We make it there after packing up my 1 week old and 16 month old and as we pull in the ambulance is sitting out side still working on her and getting her out my husband just sat there and watched. When she finally was taken in we all went in they took us to a small room then took us to the room she was in. My husband broke down, I hate seeing any loved ones hurt and I broke down right next to him. Hes been beating hisself up because his grandmother never got to see or hold his first born child ( our 16 month old is not his bio child). I look at our daughter and I see his grandmother so much in her face and I find my self crying when I look at her( she also has her name as part of her middle name) he will ask me what wrong and sometimes I just try to change subject because I dont want him to keep thinking about her as he is the type to go into major break downs and do stupid shit. I feel like im failing him because I cant stay strong. I feel guilty that she didnt get to see our daughter and the whole time she was in the hospital she would call him and tell him to tell our daughter she needs to come so she can see her. I know its best we didnt take her to see her as soo many people are sick in hospitals and our little girl was extremely small even though born at 37 weeks she was only 4lbs 15oz and we couldnt risk it. So besides not being able to be strong for him im beating myself up because I feel like I let both of them down