I’m so devastated

Last week at 9 dpo I got a vvfl on a first response...due to previously having a miscarriage I keep testing until the doctor can confirm or at least til I get a positive on a digital test.....since I’ve been testing the line only got darker once then started to get lighter and lighter until today I tested and it was barely there...I’m assuming my period is going to come any second now but it sucks soooooo bad. I haven’t lost any symptoms yet... I just know I lost the baby