I just got a job 3 weeks ago. It's the first time in 6 months I've had one so I expected to need some adjustment. And that part has been fine. I love getting out of the house again and being able to help out financially.

But this business is the WORST. It's on commission and I'm fine with that. I'm willing to go out and do what it takes. But I've done nothing but jump through hoops for my team leader and there are still a ton of problems keeping me from making the money we need.

To give you some info it's a job giving out free lifeline phones to people who don't have money otherwise to pay a phone bill. I loved the idea. That fact that I could help a single parent keep their job or give a phone to a veteran who just can't find a job yet makes me really happy. I want to make sure that when someone is down in the dumps they have a chance to crawl out. I know I would greatly appreciate that.

But I also really wanted to be able to help out with money at home. And this was a way to get things started. I figured I could get experience in working with more people and move to an actual store eventually.

So fast forward to training. My team leader barely showed me how to sign people up and then gave me phones and sent me on my way. I didn't know nearly enough to work with different kinds of applications. And on top of not knowing what I was doing yet she told me I had to buy a tablet for the job. She did not tell me which kind so I bought the wrong kind on accident and had to return it. I then bought an even more expensive one because she threatened to take my phone's away if I didn't get started on things.

So we go without enough money for food so I can get started making money (my husband was nothing but supportive even though it was risky).

Then she tells me I'll need a hot spot on my phone for the tablet to connect to. Simple enough right? WRONG. My service provider wouldn't let me get hot spot on the kind of phone I had. So we bought a piece of crap phone, the only one we could afford, so I could FINALLY make my money back.

Then I'm out giving phone's away and things start feeling dandy. Then the app I'm supposed to use to sign people up stops working. I have people all around me waiting and I'm getting stuck on application after application. I told me team leader about the issue and she told me I must be doing it wrong. Well I was doing it the same way the whole time and it had been working up until then. So I KNOW it was on their end.

It's been 3 days and the app still isn't working. So I can't do anything. Yet, they are still pressuring me to go out and set up. They are acting like it's my fault I'm not getting rid of phone's. I LITERALLY CANNOT USE THE APP ITS THEIR FAULT.

Ever since I started this job I knew these people were greedy but I needed a job really bad. And now I've been through nothing but problems and I'm still unable to do the job I set out to do and they don't seem to care. I have been stressed the whole time I've been attempting to do this. I don't stop thinking about it. I can't even fall asleep because I'm paranoid about looking at my messages from my team leader pressuring me to go out the next day even though I can't.

I just don't know what to do anymore. At this point the only thing keeping me from making money is their negligence. And I'm tired of trying so hard and not getting what I've worked for. I wanted to help people really bad. But this is destroying my mental health. My husband has even noticed that I'm obsessing over all of this. Honestly, I would rather just get some crappy job in a fast food place. At least I would get payed for working hard.

I don't want to be the kind of person that gives up on something so soon. But idk how much more I can take. If I'm going to fail because of someone else I can't handle that.